Gazing into the darkness, and the world seemed to stop.  “What just happened?”  “Did this just happen to me?” Everything went silent. He was talking and I couldn’t voice a reply. I was rubbing the cheek that was now burning in pain. Fear and unbelief at this moment were loud in my ear. The silence of the night was deafening with only lights shining through the window in the homes around us.  I remembered it was there, and I just needed to get to my protection. I allowed my hand to fall into the pocket of the door as I reached slowly until I felt the metal in my hand. “This had to save me from this moment,” I thought. I ...

#TransparencyChangesLives What if I told you I opened my eyes this morning and felt empty? What if I told you before I smiled this morning I cried? What if I told you, I felt alone even though my children are down the hall?  Since I'm out here, let me go deeper.  What if I told you I felt unloved and hungry for love?Just what if?And what if, it was true?All these IF's were my reality this morning. I have learned my life, my pain, my moments are not just about me, but the pain is still real. I have to push through this to be able to help someone else close to me and far away.  I said God where are you? Why am I feeling this way, even now? It wouldn't break. The ...

Do I Really Need ClosureThe pain of ending a relationship can last for a long time. As divorced moms, we don't only have to think of our pain, but the pain of our children. The end of the relationship, may not necessarily mean the end of the feelings you have for the other person. Because of this, you can believe and/or need closure in some way to go forward. The need for closure means something remains open that requires something externally or internally for it to be finalized. Many times it is the wound inside our heart and soul that holds the pain of betrayal and much more. At some point, in order to move forward, you have to ask yourself, "What am I really expecting?"Many times we ...

God I Surrender To Your Healing: When we hear the word "surrender" it can sometimes bring a negative emotion and thought. Surrender according to google.com is  to cease resistance to an enemy or opponent and submit to their authority. WOW, that opened my eyes to surrender with a fresh perspective. But wait, God is not our enemy. Quite the contrary, He is our redeemer. God is the restorer of our soul. This means He will restore us to who He created us to be before pain ever happened in our lives. Yet, surrender tells us we have to be vulnerable because we are giving up our control and giving it over to God. For many, to give someone other than ourselves control in our lives reminds ...